August 20, 2009

Saying Goodbye to a Wonderful Friend

This past week (8-18-09) our family had to put our old friend Ernie to sleep. He was such a good dog. He was with us for 11 years, 3 months, and 15 days. I have never had to make this decision before, and it is devastating. All of us stayed with him to the end. There has been a lot of tears and sleepless nights.

I made a few videos of him

Ernie on his last legs I think

Part 1 of when to let go of your dog

Part 2 of when to let go of your dog

Jason took two days off work, and we are today trying to get back to something more like normal. The day after it happened, our dry summer turned to a long gray rain. We haven't seen this weather literally all summer. It is still raining off and on today the 20th and seems to be forecast through tomorrow morning.

I'm reading Mark Levin's "Rescuing Sprite" now. Something Jason bought for me for a gift a while ago, which I just didn't want to think about then. I have so many regrets for what I did not do for Ernie, because of cost, and because he seemed to be holding up well, at least in attitude, for so long. I stopped walking him because it was too hard... perhaps if I had given him some assistance device sooner, allowing the rest of his body to stay in shape, he would have not gone downhill so soon. I don't know. But he always forgave me for my shortcomings and just wanted to know he was loved. Sometimes I even shortchanged him on that, because it was too hard to look him in the eye, it was too hard to hear him sigh that tired old sigh that told me the time was coming. I cringe now to think of how many times I did that.

I found a great post from Lutherans and Procreation/Lutherans and Contraception blog, about how in its bondage to corruption,
All Creation Groans...

I hope it will be of some comfort to the animal lovers out there. He sees the sparrow fall, and even though animals are not people, he knows our hurts, and knows that the pain is there because of this world that fell into sin, because of us. He has compassion on us in our weakness.

Praise be to God the Father that he has provided hope, that he sent his son into the world, to be born of a virgin as prophesied, to live the sinless life in our stead, and die willingly a horrific death to propitiate our sins and avert God's just wrath against us for what we have done. He rose again three days later for our justification, conquering death and the grave. In its stead, he grants us hope for eternal life and comfort and grace in this one.

We will miss you terribly Ernie.